Sometimes I feel like if I'm being a really good teacher, I'm being a really neglectful wife. Or, if I'm being a really great wife, I'm being a shoddy teacher. Or, if I'm being a great teacher and wife, I'm dropping the ball with my church responsibilites, or I'm not exercising like I should be, or I'm being an obnoxious family member, or I'm letting friendships slide that I should be enriching.
Do you ever feel that way? There are times when I sit and think about moms-- and having to concern yourself with all of the above, as well as your kids. Mothers, I salute you!
The truth is, I think, that I am always trying my best. That's all I've got; that's all any of us have got. And even though it may not be enough all the time, we still manage to make it work and life goes on. What I need to learn is to give myself and others credit for the things we are accomplishing! And to pick up the slack and try again when I find myself coming up short in any aspect of life.
Thanks for indulging me in a little self-reflection.
In other news...
I'm having a "Math Matters" night for my students and their parents tonight. I've been working really hard on it, and my mom has helped me out a TON. I can't wait to actually have the event and see the results. Plus, my students are excited for it! That brings me a lot of satisfaction already.
The big 2-4 is coming up on Sunday. My grammy is making a big dinner and I get to hang with the fam. The Grover Clan already celebrated last weekend-- it was fabulous. I love birthdays!
Samuel is working hard in his last semester of school. He deserves a lot of credit for being willing to finish his degree in Salt Lake so that I could keep my job. He also deserves a lot of credit for making it happen-- coordinating credit transfers, graduation petitions, finding parking downtown, and driving to Provo once a week--even though he is pretty thrilled to have a BYU ID (which, he says, makes him an "offical" BYU fan). Looking forward to visiting Rexburg in April for graduation! Woohoo!
We went skiing--finally. It was amazing. LOVE being in the mountains and out of the smog, shushing down the Pioneer run, and eating peanutbutter and nutella sandwiches in the Jeep.
In third grade, the word of the week is intrepid. Yes oh yes.
4 comments:
I have thought these same thoughts many many times. Good luck with "Math Matters" and I hope you have a fantastic birthday. You are the best. Be proud of what you are doing because being a teacher is tough work!
Some wise comments.
Well, considering you're 24, we are expecting wisdom.
You're a lovely person, a terrific teacher... loved by all.
Other than the BYU thing, Samuel's a keeper. I guess we'll have to get over that part.
Pop's in love with his kids.
math night was absolutely "smashing" as Aunt Dot would say.
as a matter of fact---YOU are absolutely "smashing" too!
LYMTNW
Love mom
I think when you are genuinely trying it seems like there is always something to fall short at. I have felt that way so many times. I think you are amazing. I heard our Stake President say once that "Sometimes you give more to one thing family, or work or church callings and the others slide a little, then another time you choose the other thing and give it more attention. It is just about figuring out which thing to give the most to and at which time." I think about that a lot as I weigh out options. Brynn, I think you are doing a brilliant job in life. Hang on...and know that you are truly loved and admired.
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